**5/14/14 — I’m cleaning up my blog and I found a few posts I never published.  Here’s one of them.

I’ve mentioned that I was a hoarder right? One thing that I’m working on is purging our things and letting things go.

One thing I’m working on, is letting go of the idea of baby #3. Two kiddos is a juggle and a struggle right now, I can’t imagine what it would be like having a new born in the mix. Sometimes I long for the feel of a tiny jelly bean in my arms, looking into the eyes of the one who has been running laps in your belly for the first time.

Then I don’t want to press my luck. I had two amazing pregnancies. I experienced a c section and had a successful vbac.

I remember being miserable in AZ in November, and I don’t want to be large in the summer heat.

It’s really hard to pack away the swaddling blankets and burp cloths. But at least I can save them for my brother and sister in law. They’ll be set when the time comes.